>>35559247>>35559355>>35559396>>35559922>>35560295"Just who am I?" you think to yourself.
You or perhaps more accurately, your mind responds.
"You are Zap. You wish you were a sexy pony. You wish you had a tight, athletic body with a soft, shiny coat and voluminous chest fluff. You wish your life had purpose. You wish you could be motivated to greatness by things healthier than anger and spite."
You feel yourself sink down like you've gone down a flight of steps.
"You're a pony who sees herself more lacking in things than the reverse." your mind says to you.
"Wow! What a shocker!" you say to your mind, "Next you'll tell me the sky is blue!"
You feel a dull pressure in the back of your head.
"Zap, if not for the world pushing you down, you would have been happier, more adventurous, friendlier, and more helpful as well as hopeful."
You walk down a second set of steps.
"You're a pony who's been negatively effected by a lot of your experiences." Your mind concludes.
"Well obviously!" You respond. "How else was I supposed to react? I can only stay positive for so long before it gets too exhausting."
The pressure in the back of your head spreads to your eyes.
"Zap, you take risks for the sake of curiosity, and you learn for the sake of knowledge. You want to learn just because knowledge is out there. And when you try to repress it, the desire only grows stronger."
Down, down the steps you go.
"You're a natural philosopher, degree or not." your mind states.
"I think I've always known that." you respond, no longer trying to fight your mind.
The pressure makes you feel like you're underwater.
There's a light down here. It shines from behind a door or an 'idea' of a door, and it's an easy choice to open it.
On the other side is a green glow. You can barely look at it - not just because it's bright, but because it's so multifaceted, you can't really get a grip on its shape.
>Accept this image, and invite it out.>Deny it, and close the door. 
